so....

so i know this is lame and childish and very high school of me but this next blog is going to be a rant and since none of the people reading this are going to be in my rant im going ot call people out...

megan: i can't believe you just fucking left for a month and I have to take care of your dogs. you didnt even give me the goddamm rent check for the month. I mean seriously do I not work also??? i can take my dog to work with me thats why i don't mind ONE but your TWO other dogs make my life hell. I can never leave for the weekend. Having people over is a nightmere and there obnoxious when i get home. did you not even think about how I would feel? i don't even want andi living with us any ways let alone me taking care of her.

E - i can't believe you quite your fucking job that you worked so hard to get just for some fucking month long thing. and you gave up 2 movie roles. they will have it next year JOHN is the chair!! and he runs it. plus you are just ditching ricky on his movie and you pulled a real lame ass movie dropping out at the last min for the spotcheck movie. seriously i think your crazy plus i you gave me june rent late and you still haven given me july. you have been no help with megan and dogs. being nutral just fucking pisses me off.

eric- your are a flake, you lie and im done with you. i have never let anyone walk on me the way you do and for that i pity only meself. you are inmature and unrelyable. all i wanted was to be your friend. i guess that was too much to ask. you talk a good game as my friend and have nothing to show for it. so for that i say fuck off and good bye.

my other car(the one i don't drive that just sits in the driveway) got towed today.

my fucking deposit has not been returned form the apt i vacated more than a month ago.

i have 2 unpaind parking tickets = $145

my credit card bill is due in a week and i still haven't gotten paid.

and i haven't cried this much in years.

my heart is broken

beachness

So coming home always makes me miss the beach. I never realize how much of the beach has shaped my life. Going there late at night and sitting and smokin a J or laying out all day getting the perfect tan. I really do love it. Sadly, I only realize this when I'm 5 hours away from it. Anyways.... Elvis and I are going to the beach tonight. I know its really cheasey because he is just a dog but I think its important. He is my little man and he deserves it. Since all the big men in my life are assholes at the moment. Anyways..... love the beach<3

grow out of lomita

So I'm home in Lomita for a week. I brought my dog elvis. Im kind of over it. I have a few friends left but pretty much my life is in Turlock. I am a designer, I do theatre, and I make movies. So yeah! theres my life in a nutshell...